As coaches, we’re trained to
talk about closure and completion.
Something about this always
feels not right to me.
Closing off past relationships
is to deny the undeniable parts
of us that are still entwined.
The rest of our stories
together and apart.
Yes, of course, do what you
need to do to complete what’s now,
but then consider leaving the door open
just enough
to breathe what’s next into the room.
When you are ready.
Today, I’m trying not to have to know
everything
all at once.
To let the emotional air circulate
and not be so de-fi-nite
about what I think I know.
If I loved you once,
I’ll love you forever.
Though not in the same way, perhaps.
I’ll think of you often –
more often than you’ll know –
because I’ve left space for you.
Which is why my completions
nearly always include the promise:
you’re in my life forever now.
A man in my life used to say
I’m right here
even when he wasn’t.
Which was strangely comforting
then and still.
We’re all right here.
Able to open the door a crack
at any time
or swing it wide open
and let ourselves breathe in again.